[Article] → Confessions: Meeting a Soulmate Showed How Uncomfortable I Was.
She was the reflection of me.
I could not stand by her side because I continued sleeping with my dreams.
I saw how heavyhearted my thoughts were.
I saw that possession is a bad thing.
Yes, I needed to let her go. I tried my best but it wasn’t enough.
To be honest, I feel honored to meet her.
Now I’m starting to wake up and chase those dreams.
Inspired Background:
I’ve been living in hostels while volunteering here in Athens. Traveling is besides all, the one thing that can make us become completely different than we were before.
In this hostel I’m sleeping right now, it’s really cheap. So I get to meet all kinds of people there.
From backpackers traveling the world to German punks with half-shaved rainbow hairs.
This diversity is intense, and I’m getting some valuable lessons from it. By constantly meeting new people and saying goodbye to them, I realize that everything is rhythmic. It all comes and go.
The hostel environment is very friendly, and I would never think that this culture would teach me so much.
Everyone I meet gets to plant a seed in my thoughts, and I get to plant a small seed in their thoughts too.
It was in a normal night. People were hanging out in the hostel garden (a concrete corridor with some trees and vases), I arrived from a long day, opened the door and sited in the first available spot.
She was at my side right side...
We chatted for a few minutes and I could see that she was more than a normal person. Because of transparency and honesty, I could see that we were talking from heart space, we were being authentic, open-minded and spontaneous.
I was slowly rising in love with her energy.
By her beautiful aura and graceful laughing.
The next few days we interacted quite restless, the radiant vibration was beaming between us. The intensity of our interaction allowed me to get back on the middle way.
Maybe it’s luck, maybe its fear. Maybe it was not suppose to happen. But one thing I feel sure of:
It was not by accident that we met each other in that moment and place.
Of course that the future is unknown. But if for some reason we cross our paths again, I am glad to say that I once fell in love with a goddess woman with a golden cheap tiara in her head.
But I was not ready, we were both off balance.
Now that she went back to her life to do some not-so-fun work, I can move along and close the door. This text is a self-reflection for me to learn some lessons from the whole situation.
Love is a productive teacher.
We can get some valuable lessons if we search for the bigger grasp.
Right now, the moment we spent together was a unique memory of platonic love on this trip. She ignited the flame inside me again, and I am grateful for that.
I even wrote a handwritten letter like I used to do when I was eleven…
I am striving to be the best version of myself every day so that when I get another opportunity to give some love, I don’t sleep on the couch again.
When observing from a higher perspective, I was kinda immature or childish.
I had fear to sit by her side, and to speak my feelings.
But in the situation which we both were, I guess that nobody could be aware all the time. This outcome really shows me that if I want to be in a constructive relationship, I still have to work on myself in order to be fully genuine.
Until I achieve the realization and manifestation that my soul craves for, I thank everyone that crosses my path and teaches me some lessons about who I am.
Thanks For Reading ❤
#Day 88
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